Road – this is Rubber. Rubber – meet The Road

By Seamus Anthony

By Seamus Anthony

knight of cups tarotToday I attended a meeting in which the end of a cash cow gig for me was all but spelled out. The meeting left me with the decision to either commit, for the promise of regular, handsome pay, to another year of working for this company, to do which I would need to put together a very convincing case and then really commit heavily …

… or to pursue my dream.

I had been unhappy in this one-day-a-week role (not my only earner) for some time and was really just hanging on “until we get the house”, “until we get the new car”, “until Christmas”.  The fear of poverty kept me hanging on, but inside I knew that change had to come.

Recently I got sick, I won’t go into the gory details but it prevented me from attending the office for a number of weeks.

Funny thing was, often, on the days I was not scheduled to go to that office, the symptoms would disappear, only to return on the days I was scheduled to schlep in there (it wasn’t a horrible place or anything).


Being ill gave me some time to think however so this morning as I went back in, I felt cool about the situation. I was sure I was only going back in to either:

  • Be told it was over as of now
  • Stick at it for a few more weeks to help cover the Christmas vacation period before resigning.

I had built up confidence in myself to strike it out in a new direction, one that I am passionate about. I know (now) that without passion, you are doomed to fail (or perhaps worse, be mediocre) no matter how good the plan looks on paper. With passion, you might just succeed because your passion drives you and the work itself feeds your energy rather than depletes it.

The first option (be told it’s over) was pretty much what happened, except that I was thrown a bone in the form of “convince me to keep hiring you”. I wasn’t expecting that.

So as I drive home I was faced with two options:

  • Option A: Come up with a strategy and a value proposition to the company to convince them to hire me for another year.
  • Option B: Grab my balls and strike out in the new direction for real. Really go for my true business dream, my passionate calling.

While absolutely not the sum total, part of this passion is to do with Tarot. I have been studying Tarot cards for years now and while I am still a student, I have felt strongly pulled to incorporate them into my master plan, my true offering to the world. And of course, part of this includes monetizing this passion somehow. I thought about this as I journeyed home from the meeting.

Now, a few days ago I purchased a “new” deck I wanted (a pre-US Games Rider-Waite, circa 1972) on eBay. I was not expecting to see the cards for a week or so yet but when I returned from the meeting, weighing up my options and specifically thinking about the tarot element when – lo!

There, several days earlier than expected, were the cards in the letter box!

Another coincidence?

Later, I drew a card, seeking guidance from my Higher Self to help me make my decision. I didn’t ask a question, sometimes your mind is so fully on a topic you don’t need to ask anything specific.

The card I drew, Knight of Cups, by my interpretation, based on the symbols in the card, gave me this answer (my own words):

The time has come to take your creative imagination and ideas and put them to work for you in the real world, paying every attention to the demands of the physical plane, namely, the need to earn a living at the expense of  daydreaming and speculative thought. You’ve had the ideas, you know what your inspired calling is – now is the time for action – hard-nosed, practical, focussed effort. And the attendant risk. Road – this is Rubber. Rubber – meet The Road.

So the plan is to finish the business plan and the commitments I have for this year, then next year – go for it.

Now … better to go speak to the wife J

P.S. I did that and she is 100% behind me, I am happy to report.


Hi, I'm Seamus Anthony. I am an author, artist and musician from Australia. Here at Rebel Zen, I document my journey as an creative artist and human and in doing so, hopefully help you in your own progress through your life of creativity. Go get your free E-book by me: "Taming The Monkey Mind".

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  1. Hi Seamus. I’m one of your blog followers and found today’s post interesting in a few ways. I’m in a similar situation in my own career, however more struggling to determine what’s next and where the passions would take me, while also having my own particular version of schlep I do as well, yes because it pays the bills.

    First, I like the tarot concept, I have the same deck that you show but it’s been a looooong time since I used them. I do however really love the visuals of these cards. I also like you interpreting the card but wanted to know where you got the info from?

    Secondly, I’m interested in what you’re planning to do next or what you’re embarking on, and how you might have found that direction. I’m a 12+ year business owner that employs me and my own adventures have involved a lot of new starts, motivations, soul searches etc, and at the current time I’m perhaps having a trickier time than in the past.

    Anyways, it sounds like your decision to go for it next year is one you’re taking a deep breathe before and that you have some good energy, so good luck! Glad to read your post and again glad to see the Tarot imagery even if it’s only as a side story, it’s cool. Cheers.

    • Hey Mathew thanks for your comments. Re the tarot cards I have been studying up on them for many years now and have my favourite sources of interpretations, but recently I have become confident to read into them without consulting books every time, trusting my accumulated knowledge and my intuition. They are rich with symbology so it does take some time to get to know them well.

      As for what I am planning to do next – essentially my plan is to build my personal brand – by inspiring and helping people to get more out of life via my music, writing and ideas – to the level where it sustains me financially. I know that sounds a little vague but it does get more specific than that. You can expect information around meditation, Tarot, success concepts and more generally how-to-be-awesome-and-kick-massive-ass. Building this blog back up to a thriving community is definitely a part of that so thanks for joining in 🙂

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